The Silver Lining

I think all this free time I've been thrown into lately has actually been good for me in a backhanded sort of way. In an ideal world I would have a job that paid the bills and that I loved getting up for in the morning. I can't actually remember a time when all three of those were true for me at the same time. I've had jobs that I loved getting up for. I've had jobs that paid the bills. And right now I love getting up in the morning - mainly because I get to make choices that I want to make. I'm not tied to some sort of employer. Well technically I'm tied to the State of Colorado as an employer, and they're not asking too much from me at the moment.

I've been able to do some reading. I've been truly able to look forward to the small things - I recently told a friend I had never in my life been so excited about toilet paper and toothpaste. (As an aside - I learned the hard way that I can't handle cheap toilet paper. Had to get the soft stuff.) I've been able to spend time with people that I love and make new friends, and I truly believe that by taking care of myself well during this time of unemployment I'm setting myself up well to be healthy when I can finally get back into a job.

What's been on my mind lately is that for the last two years I've learned over and over again that life does not turn out how I think it's going to or how I'm planning on it to be. This time around I've been lucky enough to see that maybe life not going the way I've planned isn't necessarily a bad thing. Yes - I would have absolutely chosen to not be unemployed. Yes - I would absolutely prefer to be working right now. And - I do get to drink coffee in my bed every morning. And - I do get to spend the entire day with a friend casually going from one thing to the next. It's not all bad.