My Own Worst Enemy

I think sometimes I'm my own worst enemy. I found an apartment that I actually like last night. One I could imagine getting excited about moving into - which in my emotional world felt huge. And now, now that I've applied and I'm waiting for the credit check to run I'm sitting here convincing myself more and more by the minute that there's no way they'll ever take me and I'll never find an apartment. Seriously - if I could think a little more positively maybe I wouldn't feel so sick to my stomach.