On Transitions

tran·si·tion [tran-zish-uhn, -sish-] –noun
1. movement, passage, or change from one position, state, stage, subject, concept, etc., to another; change: the transition from adolescence to adulthood.
2. Music.
a. a passing from one key to another; modulation.
b. a brief modulation; a modulation used in passing.
c. a sudden, unprepared modulation.
3. a passage from one scene to another by sound effects, music, etc., as in a television program, theatrical production, or the like. –verb (used without object)
4. to make a transition: He had difficulty transitioning from enlisted man to officer.

I've been in transition for about a month now - it began with the prospect of the physical transition of moving, and is so much more than that. It's a transition from living with a roommate to living alone, from a big apartment to a small one, from one way of doing life to another.

I don't have patience for transition. I expect myself to adapt right away and get frustrated when it doesn't happen. For whatever reason yesterday I looked up the definition of transition, and the point about music struck me. Musical transition, modulation, key change - it's not the most pleasing sounding part of a piece, it's not the part you sit back and say ahh and yet, it's usually the most interesting part of piece of music. The part with the most theory to dissect and talk about, and the part where much of the time you see really what a composer is trying to communicate.

So for now I'm trying to have that type of attitude toward this transition. That it's not pretty or enjoyable, but it's a time to find my true motivations and get in touch with more reality. Hopefully that attitude will help me adapt more gracefully.